my diary entries.

blog shift

2007-08-01T14:57:00.001+08:00

Howdy! My blog has shifted to

www.allmycrap.wordpress.com

So visit me and leave some comments! You guys can still tag here since that stupid thing doesn't have a tagboard feature.

much love to all =)

the day i kissed audrey.. haha

2007-07-29T13:19:00.000+08:00

Yes, I got drunk last night.. but not to the point where I would gag and get a hang over the next day. (Thank Goodness) It was a good day I suppose.. I had a torrent of emotions last night.. Happy, upset, hurt, blah blah blah. I look back and wonder why I drank.. It was a good and bad thing I suppose. I got to be happy, and I came to a realisation of certain things. I'm at a fork road, and I don't know which path to take. =(

twice.

2007-07-25T19:21:00.000+08:00

This happened to me twice. 2007 has made the jackpot.

mom was right. One day I'm going to hurt someone or someone's going to hurt me.

nobody's perfect and whatever happens, happens.

I just wish I could rewrite my history.

guys..

2007-07-24T13:57:00.000+08:00

Dear God,

Can you please explain why I feel so upset? Can you please open up my eyes to the things unseen? Can you show me who is the right one? Can you tell me what I should do..

Much Love,

Cheryl.

back in perth for sem2 -2007

2007-07-23T16:42:00.000+08:00

hooray I'm back in perth.. I miss mom, dad and my bro so much!! =( feels a tad lonely here.. stuck in a lil room.. theres nothing like home.. sigh. oh well.. at least I get good weather here.. its nice and cold - loveit. Uni has started.. subs seem hard but hopefully I'll pull myself together and do a good job this sem.

contacts

2007-07-23T16:39:00.000+08:00

me with the scary eyes..

moms 60th

2007-07-18T01:02:00.000+08:00

17.07.2007

It was my moms 60th birthday.. We went to Macpherson Rd for chinese food. Ordered huge ass oysters.. like HUGE.. never seen such big ones liddat before.. steamed vongole muscles, suckling pig, braised duck, huge ass cockles, tofu, pepper crab, noodles and steamed yam for dessert.. and I'm so full noww! it was good tho.. Feasting on good food before i head back on sunday! =)

haircut

2007-07-13T14:06:00.001+08:00

Got my haircut at toni&guy yesterday.. did jack all after.. its quite depressing.. I feel I've been putting on weight.. my arms are getting bigger.. stomachs getting EVEN bigger than it is already, face getting rounder.. ERGH. and all I do is just stare in the mirror with disgust. I don't seem to have the urge to run or exercise.. Great, I'm becoming a slob.

ergh =(

laser quest with new cre ppl.

2007-07-10T00:50:00.000+08:00

Went to laser quest with the new cre peeps today.. was fun.. esp the crazy time at maccas. =)

wheres the 'togetherness'? *shakeshead*

shes myLove.
JJ boy.
*smooches* nice hair. me likey likey.
the chiccas
crazy shenanigans
u heart me rite guys?
laser quest.

rings

2007-07-09T15:08:00.001+08:00

Why the ring on my finger?

"Do not put love in a heart because a heart can be broken, but put it in a circle, because a circle is eternal"

fighting in front of me

2007-07-05T21:49:00.001+08:00

i cant freakin stand it when my parents yell infront of my bro and i. They never seem to understand how their kids feel when they yell and curse at each other. i'm watchin tele with my bro and they start yelling over us. what the fudge are we supposed to do? listen to their shit and feel outa breath.

ERGH.

photobooth

2007-07-05T14:22:00.000+08:00

The Return of The Narcists

Photobooth Madness

given up.

2007-07-04T00:03:00.000+08:00

I don't know what to call it. A relief I guess. I read and deleted the last few messages I kept dearly, on my phone from him. He moved on fast, and I tried to as well. I held on for a few months, but it was stupid of me. I'm giving up, giving all hopes up.

It feels good!

back from indo

2007-07-03T02:15:00.000+08:00

Indo For the Weekend

.
Yeps, I'm from Jakarta. Reached home at about 1 am today.. Indo was pretty cool, all I did was.. shop, eat sleep. The traffic there is soooo crazy. Its jammed 24/7. JAMMED. The Malls are so freak-ishly big, the cheap places are like super duperly crowded.. and the food, is yum. hehehe. It was a good experience.. shopped as usual, and took a shit load of photos in the booth thingos - which would soon be posted up. On friday we watched fantastic four, and on sunday we watched transformers in La Premiere - nice recliner seats, tasty cocktails, friggen blankets provided, yummeh food served and a FREAKIN AWESOME MOVIE. I want a transformer for christmas :) Thankew mandy and ur mommy for ur awesome hospitality and to warso? if i spelt tt correctly.. ehhe.. hes the driver :) It was a tiring trip and I need some sleep soon..

Happy Birthday
to Dad yesterday, and to Jon today. Hes a 'big' boy now - 20 years and counting :)

(will post more pics tmr!)

Mandy's home

rise and shine!
mmm prawn goodness.
sambal kang kong, prawn and some.. achar thing
more food
CRAB :) the egg is awesome.
shitteroos. WE'RE SO FULL.
bleeding nose.
mr driver.
greenery.
being bored in the car.
tts me passport.. haha
padang food. ENAK! My buttons are about to burst, but hey, I'm still going.
and no, we didn't eat all that food up there.
They just serve us all those plates and we pay for what we eat.

off to indo!

2007-06-29T00:50:00.000+08:00

I'm off to indo for the weekend! :) catchya ppls when I get back on monday!

back in sg.

2007-06-24T15:37:00.000+08:00

I'm back in room, back in my nice big bed, back to family. Its great to be back, after being away from home for some time. After being in perth alone, I have seen and realised my family's undying love for me. With them, I'll never be hurt and left alone. I reached home, and walked into my room. I had so many memories left in it. From pictures to gifts, I looked at them sadly and packed them into the drawer. Life's life. In the matter of 4 months, so many things can happen. Be it good or bad, its history. I don't want to make the same mistakes or decisions I made before. History makes who I am today, and I don't regret anything I've done, and I want to be happy for whatever that has happened. Back to yummy food, an awesome family and crazy friends. I can't wait to get this holiday started. =)

jiens wedding

2007-06-24T01:03:00.000+08:00

jiens wedding =) and mom bought me a diamond bracelet and a diamond ring if it can be seen..

daddyy!
love em.
papa and ma ma

blahhh
closed mouth
open mouth

winter break 2007

2007-06-22T22:54:00.001+08:00

I'm back in singaporeee!! and its sooo hootttt =(

manicure and dinner day with mandy

2007-06-20T19:28:00.000+08:00

I'm so full from dinner at Ciao Italia.. Oh my goodness bah-ness, arh-ness me.
*&^%$#@*!
I had to undo my belt for dessert.
We shared a spag marinara and chilli mussels for mains,
and we shared a tiramisu for dessert.
and the tiramisu is one of the BEST in the world i swear.
those italians sure do know how to make nice desserts =)
I'm burstin now, but it was worth it.
We did got french manicures in the city before that.. It was our 'relaxing' day.
and tomorrow, we are going SHOPPING! =D

Marinara!!!

shits, it smells GOOD.
tiramisu...
La La la..
so immature arh mandy? mwaa!

shrek the third day.

2007-06-20T03:56:00.000+08:00

she knows she short. heheee. love her to bitss!

waiting for a table at hawkers. being molons..
jacq being super 'molonic' Slept til late today, which was super good. Picked up audrey and we headed to the city for some shopping. Wanted to go to Kings St and we browsed through gucci, lv, kookai, zomp and all the other stores along the st. It was a chilly day, sun sorta out, wind blowing against our bare skin and faces, walking the streets of perth. I was somewhat decked up but I could have felt warmer.. and poor audrey was freezing since she can't really take the cold. lol.. We walked to the city and got some lunch at kfc.. she got 3 dinner rolls & a med mash potato and I got a drumstick and 2 dinner rolls.. not very filling but it was enough to last me til our dinner at 9pm. I bought mum her 60th bday present.. the chanel lipsticks which I thought of buying were $47each, but I got her the Chanel CoCo perfume which was $140 over bucks but was discounted to $119 - hope she likes it, otherwise I'll gladly have it =) We met mandy, jacq and vonny and watched shrek the third which was just awesome-ness! We had dinner after at hawkers cruisine which was totally yummeh! - coffee spareribs, 3egg spinich, steam hainanese chicken and mapo tofu. I came back and packed my things, cleared my room while audrey used the internet.. haha.. sent her home at 3am and yes, I'm online surfin the net and talking to the man. I should hit the stacks.. going for a run tomorrow morning, or rather in about 6 hours time, and will be washing & vacumming my car and meeting mandy to get our nails done! and having dinner at the best italian restaurant ever - ciao italia =) mmmm the marinara... mmm the mussels.. mmmm the tiramisuuuuuuuuuu!!!! yes. i can't wait.

Goodnight!

finished for sem1

2007-06-18T12:11:00.000+08:00

Hallelujah. I've finished exams for the semester =)

can't wait to go home, can't wait.. CANT WAITTT!!!!

so many wants, but no resources.

2007-06-16T12:49:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh, I want an iphone, and ibook, and a ps3 =)

and I'm getting my logitech x540 speakers in singaporeeeeee!! I can't waittttttt!

cant be friends with someone i love

2007-06-16T00:44:00.000+08:00

I can't say goodnight to you without typing the words I Love You.

I can't see you and not give kisses to you.

I can't meet you and not hold your hand.

I can't hug you and remind you that you're the best thing that happened to me.

I can't look into those eyes and say I'm in love with you.

Its hard to be friends with someone you love.

fallin for someone

2007-06-13T22:30:00.000+08:00

When I learn to get over everything,

then

I can say I'm fallin in love again.

1 more exam.

2007-06-13T12:51:00.000+08:00

3 exams down, and 1 more to go.

I feel more relaxed, but not totally relaxed, knowing that I probably flunked my previous 2 examinations.. gay as can be but what can I do but hope for the best.

back to singapore nxt friday, thats something to look forward to =)

acct exam - a shit

2007-06-11T17:20:00.000+08:00

so how was the accounting exam?

horribly bad and its probably a fail.

Furla bag from milan

2007-06-09T21:04:00.000+08:00

My sis went to milan for a holiday with my bro-in-law, and mom asked her to buy me a bag from there.. and this is my baggggg =)) I wanted either a fendi or miumiu, but I got a furla instead.. went to the website and chose it and she got it today =))

at least something exciting happened today. heh.

*smiles*

screw accounting

2007-06-09T17:14:00.000+08:00

ok I'm going to fail accounting and I don't care anymore. No point studying for the exam on monday when I know I'm going to fail the exam and the unit. I'm prepared to do it next semester again.. and.. for the econs exam today.. I hope I just pass the unit.

Stressed to the max and I think I'm going insane.

*tears hair apart*

*laughs hysterically*

massages =D

2007-06-06T19:48:00.000+08:00

My shoulders have been aching like nobodys business.. but yesterday Glorz, Jy and Chris gave me massages.. man it was goooddd =)

Singapore, Malaysia & indo..

I'm coming soon!

unproductive day.

2007-06-06T19:25:00.000+08:00

Been sick, been studying, been stressing, and I feel so weak. Man.. The coming exams are tiring me out and I look like a piece of shit. I feel like a piece of shit anyway. This year has been amazing.. so different, so weird, so annoying, so disheartening. Its opened me up to many new things and I have learnt from it which is good i suppose. I've met new people - amazing people who never fail to encourage and love.

& for the people who keep asking me why my friendster and facebook status is single..

Its clearly because,

I AM SINGLE.

so yes =) please don't ask me what happened and why, and all those questions, cuz I really don't want to talk about it right now or ever.

I just want to forget about it, so plssss help me by not askin =)

love you all and sorry if I sounded like a pisshead.

goodbye my lover - edited

2007-06-01T14:19:00.000+08:00

Edited

It may be over but it won't stop there,

I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.

You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind and that I knew when,

My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your hand.

Shared your dreams and shared your fears

I know you well, I know your smell.

I've been addicted to you.

And as you move on, remember me,

Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you sad, I've seen you smile.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.

I know your fears and you know mine.

We've had our doubts but now we're fine,

And I love you, I swear that's true.

I cannot live without you.

I'll be waiting for your return,

into my life with no regrets,

I'll never forget,

the love and joy you gave to me,

with a sincere heart I'll always say,

you're someone special,

I love you.

sick

2007-05-30T16:35:00.000+08:00

Exams are approaching and I fell sick yesterday. I feel so weak and all I want to do is to lie down. *sigh*

Can somebody make me a nice warm dinner?

Can somebody make me a hot milo?

Can somebody hug me to sleep so I'll feel a lil better?

rainy day

2007-05-28T00:42:00.000+08:00

The smell and the sound of rain was something I haven't experienced in a while. I parked my car and hugged my accounting notes as close to me so it would'nt get wet on the way back to my room after a tiring night of carrying plates and keeping a nice bright smile while serving customers. It was pouring so heavily that my lil umbrella did'nt do much good and I got horribly wet. The grass looked pretty happy with the amount of water it was getting - nice and green, with raindrops all over. I love the rain, and it would be nice if i had a glass window to look out of, while i snuggle in bed and drink a hot cup of milo. Unfortunately, I don't have a room like that. Exams are drawing near, and I'm started to burn the midnight oil, and I believe everyone is doing that too. I hope I'm able to pass my units, pull up my socks for next semester and start anew. Winter break would be a good time to relax and get myself back on track with life, and to set my priorities right. Its always good to look on the bright side of life. Think happy thoughts and smile. I'll always thank God for everything that he has provided me with and the people he has brought into my life. I've got an interesting life story to date and I am looking forward to the good things that he has in place, for me in the future.

bringing happy back

2007-05-26T19:50:00.000+08:00

sweet friend of mine.

I'm bringing 'happy' back..

its juicy couture..

2007-05-25T15:44:00.000+08:00

Waiting for her return

Somewhere below the setting sun

a little angel turns to run,

the tears well up within her eyes,

no one can see her when she cries

for moments not so long ago,

when love was more than just a show

of flowers n chocolates, her heart yearns

to feel the warmth, but now it burns

Somewhere below the morning sun,

another day has just begun,

lost and alone he sits somewhere

can no one hear his only prayer?

A ray of hope shines down to show

the path,the way that he must go,

for hopes and dreams of clear blue skies,

and promises made until he dies

Somewhere beneath a stary sky

two lovers look each in the eye,

the words they whisper soft in each ear,

the words "I Love You.." all that they hear,

their hearts alight, their moment come

to face life together, hearts as one,

waiting for a rising sun,

a new beginning, hurt undone.

[Written for me by a dear friend]

faisal and rams words.

2007-05-25T02:27:00.000+08:00

Thanks Faisy. I'll just do what I need to do.

Thanks Rams for knocking some knowledge into my stupid head.

'Theres no science in relationships. You just do whatever is best for them, that makes them happy. You do whatever you can, and when you've done with all that you've wish that you could do more. Ultimately, you love someone and there is'nt a reason for it. Its a decision for the heart, and not the head.

I know I made a wrong decision. I wanted to be free, but it does'nt seem like the case.

day we went to watch pirates of the C.

2007-05-25T01:04:00.000+08:00

24th May 2006 - Thursday

As I was waiting for Jy to finish his boxing session, I was just watching a little boy named tyler playing and watching tv. He runs around with a huge smile on his face, laughing and talking to himself with great joy. To see his happiness and freedom as a child, I could'nt help but smile. He looked at me from across the sofa, and came over to show me his stuck on cartoon tattoo. I smiled at him and he gave me the most gorgeous smile back and carried on playing with the other kids. Somebody even mistook me as his mother- may I add. I could hear the sounds of the boxers, kids screaming, and the tele booming.. and I just sat there thinking about everything that has happened in the past year. Life gets worse I suppose, but I always tell myself to look on the brighter side of things. Maybe I should go boxing one day, and let it be a place where I can let everything out. Enough emo crap from me now.. anyways.. Jy, Matt, Chester, Kristine, Kenneth and the other Jy and I went to watch pirates3 just then.. Greater union stuffed up their networks so they couldnt screen the show that we pre booked online, but we managed to catch the 9.25pm show at subi. Fetched everyone home and here I am writing this post.

Life is a box of chocolates, we have a fair bit of selection, and we've got a choice on which chocolate we want to eat first. One does'nt taste good, then we'll try another one. Keep trying til we find the one we like the most, and be contented.

fulfilling day at uni

2007-05-24T15:12:00.000+08:00

I woke up horribly late for uni today.. got ready in 10 mins and rushed accross the road to class.. I got back my math assignment which I did pretty well in =) Went to the ref and bought some breaky considering I had muesli for dinner the night before. I met audrey at the octagon and jacq met us up later for an econs lecture. Emma and I headed off to the business lab for 2 hours and skipped lunch to finish an assignment. I'm sooo glad I've finished my last 2 assignments of the sem which is due tomorrow =) Now I've got to study for exams!!! Gay...

mmm eating muesli with soy milk now.. yummeh.

moving on..

2007-05-23T11:11:00.000+08:00

He's moving on,

I'll Live and Forget.

washed me car

2007-05-22T23:21:00.000+08:00

I'm proud of myself.. I drove down to the car wash and got my car washed.. I spent 1 hour there scrubbing, pressure spraying and vacumming my car and now its squeaky clean! This man was watching me clean my car the whole time and said..

"I'm very impressed by the way you clean your car. I've been watching you since i was lining up for the express wash, and I'm very impressed."

hehe.. i seldom get praises.. so yes i had to post that up =)

ooh! and i got 10 bucks tip at work today.. yay!

counting the days

2007-05-21T11:28:00.000+08:00

19days til exams,

32days til good food and proper msn.

sat

2007-05-19T22:51:00.001+08:00

Went to the Med library after baptism.. We had our group studying session.. I didnt get much done but compared to what I would have done at home, it was relatively productive. Ches, Joe, Glorz and I had dinner at chinatown.. mm.. food.. =) It was a pretty gd day.. Talking about good days, yesterday was good too.. Hung out with audrey the whole day really.. We went to PLC to check out the new building and to see some teachers.. wenta subi to get some food, and headed to the city for some shopping! I got 2 pairs of sass & bide jeans, and I am very pleased with that.. haha.. shopping is always good. My days have been pickin up.. Hope it continues from here.

baptism

2007-05-19T22:41:00.000+08:00

I got baptised today. Yay =)

way back into love.

2007-05-17T21:51:00.000+08:00

Way Back Into Love - Hugh Grant

I've been living with a shadow overhead

I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed

I've been lonely for so long

Trapped in the past I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away

Just in case I ever need them again someday

I've been setting aside time

To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine

I've been searching but i just don't see the signs

I know that it's out there

There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light

Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction

And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart again

I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

Oh oh oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real

Or if anybody feels the way I feel

I need inspiration

Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart to you

I'm hoping you'll show me what to do

And if you help me to start again

You know that I'll be there for you in the end.

me-pics

2007-05-17T14:50:00.000+08:00

Its all in the Eyes.

Naturale

2007-05-17T14:37:00.000+08:00

All Naturale.

why?

2007-05-16T18:49:00.000+08:00

"Flames to dust,

Lovers to friends,

Why do all good things come to an end?"

Can that be changed?

the old me

2007-05-15T00:52:00.000+08:00

omg someone sent this ULTIMATE photo of me before..

bahhh!

no moneh

2007-05-14T20:34:00.002+08:00

amazing. I haven't received my bank card yet and i have no money. literally ZILTCH in my wallet. I used up my last bits of coins to pay the dance studio for tonights session, and I have no money for dinner.. or lunch tmr. Great.. I havent had a meal today.. i'm HUNGRY.. =( mehhh.

i'll last on coffee for dinner.. thank gdness i've got work tmr..

moneyyyy and fooddd here i come.

a gd day.

2007-05-14T12:35:00.000+08:00

sunday was a gd day.. fun.. havent had a day like that in a long time..

How relieving.

I'm off to a tute now.

tata!

feelings

2007-05-11T15:11:00.000+08:00

why do I feel like this. Whyyyy =(

clinging onto the hope that has been anchored.

busyyy

2007-05-10T15:48:00.000+08:00

Assignments are piling up, and are all due next week. A 3ooo word essay on some subject that i'm clueless about, an accounting presentation, an accounting assignment, and a project management assignment to do.

Went to uni today, and stayed in the computer lab to research on my stupid essay worth 30%. My stomach was grumbling like there was a hungry beast in there roaring for some food. So, I left the lab and went to the ref to find food. Nothing was appealing to my taste, so I ended up buying a kit kat to shut that stomach of mine up. Walked back home and now i'm doing jack all. Maybe I should'nt have eaten that time out.. I feel horribly bloated now.. meh. I can't wait to go back to singapore.. or rather, I can't wait til the holidays.. I can just lie in bed and day dream and let time pass me by..

31 days til my first exam,
and,
45 days til singapore.

nil

2007-05-07T12:35:00.000+08:00

from the inside out, my soul cries out.

2007-05-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

Everything is screwed up. Everything.

My life has been awfully dramatic this past week and I have no energy to handle it anymore.

I am gonna live properly, and forget all my worries.. well, I'll try to.

I've probably made history, and reached the roughest patch of my life. - only at 17.

Life could get worse, or better. or maybe better and worse..

I lost Jon, and life went topsy turvy.

I thought I was coping fine, but now its back to the start. I would say I'm a fortunate.. I get what I want most of the time.. but when it comes to relationships, I don't get what I want.. not for now at least. I want someone to talk to me, cheer me up, shower me with words of affection, to listen to my cries, and encourage me.. but theres nobody.

Everything that has happened, would hopefully make me a stronger person.

I've lost my sense of pride. I walk along the streets, head down, feeling like a total ass.. but life goes on.. i'll pick myself up and continue the journey that I started here.

hidden tears

2007-05-01T11:50:00.000+08:00

Hidden Tears

the clouds are overcast

and darkness,

fills the earth.

the wind moves the dark heavy clouds to the other side.

It never rains here,

but in the land,

far beyond,

its a thunderstorm.

The rain pours with great emotion,

feeling.

like a little lost girl crying out for her mother.

lost, and was found

by someone so dear.

A rainbow appears within.

But

fate,

does not permit.

distance is a barrier.

all one can do, is

wait.

new hair again

2007-04-24T10:43:00.000+08:00

more pics.. sorta cut a side fringe and layered it heaps.. there goes my realllllyyy long hair. =)

new haircut

2007-04-21T23:18:00.000+08:00

new hair =)

long time no blog

2007-04-16T21:48:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i havent blogged for ages.. everything has been going alright.. work is fun, uni is.. alright.. yeah.. lifes going fine. easter break was not really a break.. i had assignments due in and stuffs.. didnt have much sleep either.. but it was gd.. went for camp, which i didnt regret going..it was great to be able to get to know everyone and stuff.. uni reopened today.. and more mid sems are on the way.. hope everything goes well..

meow.

10 mths

2007-03-24T16:08:00.000+08:00

Happy 10 months on. 24th march '07.
and its also the day we became friends.

tears flow like a river,
with memories which will last forever.

carwash

2007-03-21T17:18:00.000+08:00

i washed and vacummed the car today =) its nice and clean now. hehe

2007-03-20T09:36:00.000+08:00

damnit. slept through 2 lectures. so i'll just go to 1. I wonder whats happening in jons life.. I wanna know but we don't seem to talk anymore. It saddens me.. it really does. Its like the 9 months of being together has just faded into nothing in a week. I don't know whats going to happen. No calls, no msgs.. hes on msn when i'm not, and vice versa. ergh. this sucks.

meh

2007-03-18T13:47:00.001+08:00

I think I saw a few shooting stars last night.

and,

All I wished for is to have a normal relationship and a happier life.

day out with mandy

2007-03-12T17:24:00.000+08:00

Mandy&Chez - our shopping day.. and of course... photos is a MUST. so heres some we took =)

pics from cocos night out.

2007-03-12T17:09:00.000+08:00

the night of our 286 dollar meal at coco's restaurant.. was good food, but 'VERY GOOD' price.

my car comes in handy all the time =)
I Love her.

its damn hot and i wanna move out of this dump

2007-03-07T14:01:00.001+08:00

ITS SO HOT AND I WANNA MOVE OUT OF THIS DUMP.

I'm sweating like nobody's business, I'm sitting here in my room, almost naked, and sweating like a mad woman. Even in Singapore, I've never felt so horrid. Its been 42deg for 2 days in a row. My 'lovely' room on the top floor gets the afternoon sun. The sun shines onto the roof of the building, which is my ceiling and wall. HOW CONVENIENT??! Its a waste of money staying here because the internet here sucks like hell, the food is shit and i don't eat it, we share one toilet between 5 people, theres no air conditioning, no television, and just pure loneliness. I rather rent an apartment and stay there by myself. Damn this place. I hate it and I want to move out. Maybe it was a better idea to stay in Singapore and go to uni there. ergh. Words can't express my hate for the situation I am in.

uni life

2007-03-05T13:55:00.000+08:00

Uni life is good i suppose.. hostel life? its bad at the moment because i'm in need of my internet connection.. everything is so inconvinient without it and it gets boring when i come back home at 9 at night. Many a times i end up in tears. I sit on my bed wondering what i can do at this hour when all the shops are closed.. my friends would be chattin to their bf's, and the rest, happily socialising at a pub or club.. and what bout me? I sit on my bed and stare into space. bahh. and i miss jon alot =( everything sucks. life sucks at the moment. meh.

p plates

2007-02-24T17:11:00.000+08:00

yay! i got my driving licence yesterday and i can hit the roaddd! I've been so busy these past few days.. and... i don't have my internet set up in my room YET... HENCE, i get very bored at night.. and i cant blog as well.. erghhh.. stupiidddd......... guess i'm settling in trinity well.. uni is lookin gd.. classes commence on monday.. hope its all good.. and dammmnn the weather.. its so hot. bleh.

cny'07

2007-02-19T22:31:00.000+08:00

First day of CNY..

cny07

2007-02-18T15:18:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!

and, I got two huge angpaos this morning from mom & dad!! =)

shoppin

2007-02-17T16:36:00.000+08:00

okay. i spent heaps yesterday, and today. arhhhh! So yesterday, I bought a dress, a bag, shoes, stuff for uni, diary, pj's, a cd, a present, and the rest of the money, spent on gd o food. i was so hungry, since I din have lunch.. waited 2 hrs for jacq, but in the end, i went out with lizzehh. dinner was like.. woahhh.. i ate like a monster. It wasnt tt much.. really.. *grins* i had.. fried hokkien prawn mee, shared a char kway teow with liz, some of her cheese fries, 2 drinks.. and after that we had yummi yogurt. mmmm.. i was bursting.. and liz, ordered the big tub.. and finished it.. hahaha.. kudos to her. =) and of course, she was bursting too. my legs were aching due to my shoes, and not sitting down for over 5 hours. My hands were hurting because of my many bags of shopping. It was a good day.. it felt gd knowing i got new stuff for this so called cny tts coming up tmr - just that alot of money was spent. ( uh oh, there goes my bank account! ) oh liz crashed over my place for the night, and we watched over the hedge on my laptop.. man that show is.. FUNNEH! loved it.. had a good talk and stuff.. laughed alot, and slept at around 5ish. - as usual. and today, i went shopping with dad.. which was very exciting, as he just shoved his credit card at me, and bought anything i wanted.. it was cute how he asked me to buy him an mp3 player when i'm using his card.. so, off we went to creative, to buy an mp3 player for himself.. haha.. i bought some software for my computer, then 5cd's. =) We headed to wheelock to the apple store, but because it was cny eve, it closed at 3.. DAMNIT. i wanted my speakers for my ipod.. gggrrrr... well daddy said nxt time when i come back.. i can get it =) whheee.. i'll just wait for 4 months... hehe.. ate sushi after that and now i'm home.. rented out 'just my luck' from video ezy.. i'll go watch it now.. tata.

yay. mommys steamboat for dinner. =)

reunion dinner

2007-02-16T01:38:00.000+08:00

Reunion dinner at Wah Lok. Yummeh Food. =)

vday

2007-02-16T01:01:00.000+08:00

Vday, not spent with boyfriend, but with dear o friends =)

pics from shane

2007-02-16T00:19:00.000+08:00

Pics taken by shane. Timbre - Jan '07

pics from kl - feb'06

2007-02-14T15:08:00.000+08:00

poke poke.

good o brian XD yup, tts my baby! my bear! MINE! let me goo! I'm in love with that person behind me =)
mm rotiboy greatness..
darn, I should have bought it =(

vday07

2007-02-14T14:00:00.000+08:00

happy valentines day. First ever vday where i'm attached. how exciting.. (not) because he aint here. I wonder who called 14th feb valentines day.. its filled with disappointments, money spent, jealousy, and a lil love i suppose. For my situation, I would rather stay home than to go out and see all the lovers having dinner somewhere out there.

malaysia

2007-02-12T00:46:00.000+08:00

went up to malaysia on friday.. had good food and I had the chance to see my baby again =) although it was just one day.. guess it was good enough. considering not seeing each other for 7 months.. 1 day = very good. We met twice, and I have a good time.. but wouldnt it be nice to be able to hang out with him more? why are the circumstances so badddd =( anyyywayyy.. i shall see him.. erh.. sometime.. i dunno when.. gayy i say. gay. gay gay gay.. GAY. hehe.. oh and one thing.. the chilli there is like... freakkkkinggg hott. bad bad badd shit. lol.. malaysia's good i suppose.. cheap stuff! met some of his mates.. faisy, aaron and stiffy. hehe.. i'll post up pics later.. when i'm bored.

i miss my baby. =(

hair&nails

2007-02-12T00:27:00.000+08:00

Did my hair and nails.. hehe =)

2007-02-07T00:26:00.000+08:00

Met up with lincoln, shannon, beckie and van today.. it was good fun seeing them again. heres some pics from the balcony, where we had some drinks..

stuff

2007-02-07T00:01:00.000+08:00

my friend asked me to do this.. so there. everyone seems to be doing it for some reason.

one thing i'm missing in this photo is my camera.

eating night out.

2007-02-06T00:08:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness.. my stomach is bloated from the lovely meal at 'secret garden' where i ordered crayfish&scallop pasta, and had nice starters.. and.. the dessert at geylang... and.. the prata and nasi goreng at upper thompson.. My stomach cant take the stretch anymore.. HELP!

timbre again!

2007-02-05T17:21:00.000+08:00

Its timbre again! Here are the pics from the diff days we went there =)

timbre

2007-02-05T16:26:00.000+08:00

parents.. and their arguing

2007-02-01T22:17:00.000+08:00

I hate it when my parents argue. They don't seem to care about how I feel when they do. I'd feel choked up.. and I get agitated.. and will find it hard to breathe.. errgh. They don't seem to understand each other and both of them would think they are in the right. So how?? Argue, and shout across the house. What crap is this.

I don't ever wanna be like them.

ERGH.

student visa

2007-02-01T15:50:00.000+08:00

Getting a student visa is a pain in the butt.

ERGH!

malaysiaa

2007-01-31T13:50:00.000+08:00

10 more days! XD

why

2007-01-31T02:58:00.000+08:00

why am i so stupid? sigh...

I feel choked up, and I can't breathe properly.

help. Somebody help me.

ppl change

2007-01-30T00:41:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. people do change..and situations change too.. Lately, I've been getting very emotional and upset with things..I'm sad that things have changed.. Guess i don't have that feeling that I got/had before. I should know that things of that sort would change.. but I keep hoping and thinking that it won't. I don't know what to do. Being a 17 yr old, I should'nt have so many things to brood about.. should'nt I be having fun? and being all happy and 'worry-less'?

Like the taxi lady said,: "if others can't make you happy, make yourself happy.. like i told my daughter.. why wait for the boy to call you? and when he doesnt, u get upset? Go out and do things to make yourself happy. Valentines Day is coming, dont have to sulk that your bf din buy a rose for you, go buy one yourself!"

Guess what she said is sorta true.. Lifes too short to get upset all the time. Enjoy it while we can. If nobody can make me happy, I'll make myself happy. I'll try.

sentosa with bethesda katong

2007-01-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

wahh I'm sooo tired.. lol.. went to jacqs church today.. and headed to sentosa after. it was good fun.. played touch rugby for about 3 over hours.. and frisbee for a bit. It was a good workout..haha =) havent been to sentosa since i was like.. 7? its been ages.. Company was good and yeah. headed for my long awaited dinner at SICC with jacq and the boys.

I liked today. Thanks for asking me along jacqqqiieee! XD
much love to you.

jon wanted this post.

2007-01-28T00:38:00.000+08:00

I still feel your touch in my dreams.Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why.Without you it's hard to survive

Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.

And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.

Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.

I need you by my side.

Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.

And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.

Can't you hear my heart beat so.

I can't let you go.

I want you in my life.

Its been a long and winding journey.

I Love You.

cuz i had a bad day.

2007-01-27T02:58:00.000+08:00

Yes, I had a bad day. It literally started at 1am in the morning til 11pm at night. It was a phone call at 2 something that made me all upset and pissed.. I woke up from my phones alert as I received a message from audrey in the wee hours of the morning... I didnt have enough sleep, I had to wake up for lunch with liz and her family.. We headed to bugis after, and I got drenched from head to toe. my jeans was wet, my white top went see-through, my hair was just in a wreck.. my new birks.. sigh.. dun wanna go there. We sent sam to orchard and decided to take cab to my place for a change of clothes. Took me so long to get through the operator of the cab company.. liz and i were shocked at the starting price of the meter.. 4 dollars for the booking fee (normally its 2 dollars.. but no.. it was peak hour), we were in the cbd, so that adds another 1 dollar, and another 2 dollars for peak hour. So in total, the starting fee for the cab was.. $7 + $ 2.50 = 9.50... friggen gdness.. so whatever.. stuff that, i wanted to get home to dry myself.. Reached home.. called a few ppl and stuffs.. and left for liz's house, and then headed to timbre. At least timbre was a tad better.. Music was great, as usual. Towards the end, they sang slow lovey dovey songs.. oh man.. he has an amazing voice and an amazing face.. haha.. Wished J was around.. meh.. I'm home now.. shacked...

Off to bed. Gdnite.

thoughts.

2007-01-25T23:32:00.000+08:00

People say i'm an emotionally strong person. I hold myself well, and I'm always smiling and laughing. They say I pick myself up whenever I'm down, and I'll be back to the happy go lucky girl. Emotionally strong? maybe thats just a facade. I'm this loud, crazy girl when I'm out with my friends and family. Whenever I'm upset, I'll hide my emotions til i get home. I'll coop myself in my room and let it out. Nobody knows whats happening in there. My Mom and Dad doesn't know whether I'm upset or not as I'll just walk into my room pretending to do something. If I'm angry, I'll just leave and stay in my room til the steam wears off. Nobody knows anything. My sister think I don't know anything, I'm still young, and I've got the whole world to see when I start uni, or work. She sees me as her little girl who is 10 years younger than her, who goes out and party, and wastes my parents money. There are bits which are true, and bits that arent. She does'nt know what I do or what I like doing. Since young I've never been able to 'play' with my older siblings, as they are either in the army, in uni, or working. They are too old to want to play toys with me, or too busy to come home for a family dinner. I can't talk serious stuff with them, as all my sis would say is, 'you don't know anything yet cheryl. Just wait til you're older.' I'm afraid she'll look down on me, as shes got a decade more experience than I do.

Yes. I spend money like my parents own money trees or something. I know that money aint that easy to earn and I've cut down my expenses. I stay home all day and watch my tv and go online. People say.. you're always online cheryl.. dont you have a life? What can I do which doesnt involve spending money? I'll go out if its just for a meal or something. Anything that doesnt involve alot of money. No more shopping for me. I've got more than I need and should be thankful. Mom doesnt understand what I really want. I guess my brother knows how to show his love to me. A simple thing that he does, by buying breakfast home for me makes me so thankful. It showed that he thought about me.. Even if its a packet of milo from the hawker, or a macdonalds mc muffin, or drinking the other colours of yakult as he knows I only like the red ones.. I love him for that. Mom hasnt given me a hug, or said I love you in quite a while.. I won't chuck a fit, or complain to my parents, as they have provided and sacrificed so much for me. They think I don't know what they have done for me, but I really do know. Listening to their scolding and nagging is nothing compared to the hard work that they've gone through to provide for me. So just let them nag. Mom has accompanied me to perth for 4 years. I know she was very lonely. Her days consisted of waiting til 3.20pm to pick me up from school everyday, and waiting for me to come home for dinner when I'm out with my friends for the day.. I feel guilty that I made her feel like that because I was selfish and I wanted to go to Perth for my studies. I'm heading back alone this year.. It would be hard without mom around and it would be nice if I could have my boyfriend around with me to stay by my side.. but that is just way out of the picture. Its hard, but I'll have to hang on. So many things have happened in that 4 years of high school in perth.. This little bit of change won't be too bad I suppose.

Knowing Jon last year has made me really happy. He liked me without meeting or knowing me in person, which makes it pretty special =) Its sorta like a big risk, not knowing how your girlfriend looks like in person, not knowing her habits or anything. I never wanted to tell people about how we got to know each other and how we got together. I'm not ashamed of it, as we've come this far, but sometimes their reaction puts me off, and it gets me thinking about the bads of the relationship. The circumstances of it is definately a bad, but people say all we need is love, as it is boundless. I disagree. There must be love, committment, and action. When I see my friends and their other half, I envy them. The things that their bf's do for them are beyond me. Maybe the things that he has done for me are not what I expected or what I want, but I cant complain as the biggest gift he has given to me was the trip he made to singapore. I keep reminding myself not to think about the things he hasnt done, but about everything that he has done. After we met, I don't really know what he thinks about me. Maybe its the same as before, or maybe different.. I don't know. We're so far apart. I don't know whats going on in his life, or what he is thinking when he gets all emo'd up. lol.. We're not the couple who talks everyday.. or celebrates our 1 month or 1 year 'anniversary' at the cafe by the beach.. We havent even gone on a proper date. I want us to be an ordinary couple but oh well... He says he loves me - guess thats good enough. I'll hang on & give it my best.

guess everyone figured that I'm not feeling my best tonight tts y I wrote this entry. blahhh...

I'll end my ramblings here.. thanks for even bothering to read this.. ha.

jacq and ping

2007-01-25T17:23:00.000+08:00

yay! lets all celebrate, for the union of, Ping and Jacq =)

missing u

2007-01-23T17:51:00.000+08:00

miss holding his hand..

and his hugs..

timbre

2007-01-21T02:06:00.000+08:00

Yet another great night out. Met up with liz, josh, shane, justin, aunchisa, aarksara, joanne, jonathan, andrew, matthew, may, dawn, darren, viv, and others at timbre. Some left early, and the rest of us stayed til around 12.30am, and headed home after. The band was awesome, and the drinks were good. Had heaps of fun =)

Early Birds
justin, jonathan,joanne,chez&liz
jo&i being dumdums. & liz being pweety as always!
my face looks horrid. sigh.. haha.. at last, a pic with justin.

night out at harrys

2007-01-20T01:36:00.000+08:00

I met up with Liz, Shane, Justin and Josh for dinner at New York New York. AFter stuffin ourselves with that so called american crusine, we met up with aunchisa, aarksara, crystal, ben and gloria for drinks at harrys. The singer/guitar dude was amazing.. loved his playing and style =) We headed back to the mrt, and josh was being weird as he is, ben.. he was just whack as he always is.. hahaha.. josh went up to some random and did push ups with him in the middle of the mrt area.. ben... dun get me started. all he had was water.. and he was high already. hahaha.. both of them were freakin hilarious. Twas a good night out =)

josh being spaso

the other half of the table

flammin lamborghini Lovin.

Justin, being a girl =)

day out with mom

2007-01-19T01:05:00.000+08:00

First day i left the house and my lovely bed in a very long time. I went out for lunch with my mom, and did some shopping together. I bought 3 pairs of shoes, and an ipod. heh. finally decided to get one. Mom bought a pair of shoes too.. and a clock for the bedroom.. haha.. twas a good day.. was great to get out of the house for once. =)

bleh

2007-01-18T01:05:00.000+08:00

well.. nothing much to write.. i'm as good as a rotten apple.
Got into UWA, sent my fees in, and my signed offer already. Its all done. I'm a uni student. yay for me.

wow.

2007-01-13T13:21:00.000+08:00

wo.. korkor turned 30 on wednesday! and i'm not even 20. heh =)

yes yes tts right.

2007-01-11T00:55:00.000+08:00

«« a.Q »» says:
being reclusive
«« a.Q »» says:
and antisocial
a.Q »» says:
nothing better than to soothe a lonely heart
«« a.Q »» says:
isolation!

Yes audrey. Thats Right. I do just that.

day out with jacq

2007-01-11T00:18:00.000+08:00

Mom woke me up to go to the toyota yard to pick up our beautiful camry =) hehehe. its a pretty pretty car i must say. me likey! Met jacq at kembagan station, which is in far far away land from where i live. We went to parkway parade, and had lunch there before i had a massive spending spree. Sigh.. there goes my plastic.. or rather, the plastic that was given to me by my 96 year old or so grandmother. After many hours of endless walking and browsing, we decided to watch a movie! and blood diamond it was. It was.. very violent i must say. Too violent for such a young girl like me to see! haha.. jacq was boiling her eyes out.. she came out of the cinema with her eyes all red. hahaha.. i could practically hear her WAILING. hahahaha.. and she was a seat away from me because this man blocked her view. hahaha. But it was a sad sad show.. Veli touching.. hehe. We met up with rachel and had a very late dinner at gluttons bay. Rachel had to leave, and jacq didnt want to go home, so we took a walk by the singapore river.. jacqs hot spot for a date.. heh. sigh.. get to see all those couples along the river.. doing their thing.. highly saddening.. at least i had jacq to.. play with. hahaha.. talked about how romantic the place is.. blabbered on about our past and present relationships.. and how perfect it would be if her bf booked the bumper boat and proposed to her there.. haha.. 11.00.. time to catch a cab before peak hour starts..so now i'm home, showered and clean.. t'was nice to go out to get some air.. alrighty.. time to chat on msn..

my diary entries.

blog shift

the day i kissed audrey.. haha

twice.

guys..

back in perth for sem2 -2007

contacts

moms 60th

haircut

laser quest with new cre ppl.

rings

fighting in front of me

photobooth

given up.

back from indo

off to indo!

back in sg.

jiens wedding

winter break 2007

manicure and dinner day with mandy

shrek the third day.

finished for sem1

so many wants, but no resources.

cant be friends with someone i love

fallin for someone

1 more exam.

acct exam - a shit

Furla bag from milan

screw accounting

massages =D

unproductive day.

goodbye my lover - edited

sick

rainy day

bringing happy back

faisal and rams words.

day we went to watch pirates of the C.

fulfilling day at uni

moving on..

washed me car

counting the days

sat

baptism

way back into love.

me-pics

Naturale

why?

the old me

no moneh

a gd day.

feelings

busyyy

*nil*

hidden tears

new hair again

new haircut

long time no blog

10 mths

carwash

meh

day out with mandy

pics from cocos night out.

its damn hot and i wanna move out of this dump

uni life

p plates

cny'07

cny07

shoppin

reunion dinner

vday

pics from shane

pics from kl - feb'06

vday07

malaysia

hair&nails

stuff

eating night out.

timbre again!

timbre

parents.. and their arguing

nil